Whats the reality? that the minute everyone around me decided to move, stop pretending being friend, – I found myself very lost but confuse leading me to bring negative thoughts into my mind, taking my soul to a darker place that I wasn’t interesting to explore at all. – But I did ended up there thanks to all those friends, acquaintance, colleagues and fuck bodies. When I notice everyone was gone… I realize that it was time to know myself in and out, to fall in love with life but to heal all those chacos by finding happiness with God and The Universe. I understand what needs to be done but I keep procrastinating. We do not have that much time to be wasting in order to make it at a certain age.
Thats another thing … We worry so much about the future that we do not enjoy the present.
What happens when you do not like the present? -You have to love it, Enjoy every single second. Fall in love with yourself.
The future… We must get out of our comfort zone. We must step out… Get to feel uncomfortable, get to be embarrassed, get to be a mess
We will learn but incorporate better understanding of those around us. But first we must be in love with ourselves.
I found myself alone after 25 years… I feel like I am falling in love, I feel happy more often, I feel that every day I get to put myself in a better discipline to be more transparent, clean but free of any evil force. -That holds people to not keep moving on but growing physical but spiritual.
The battler is in my mind… but I will implement an amazing discipline to be closer to the light but his marcy.
Te tengo en mi frente mi entra escribo estas palabras…
Te miro y no lo creo, lo que siento es único pero a la vez me hace sentir mas vivo de la cuenta.
Si, me miras y me preguntas que me deseas!? – Te deseo mas de la cuenta. Tus ojos me hacen sentir que nos devoraremos mutuamente, que solo seremos uno que lo demás nunca importara. Que vamos a construir un mundo en el que solo tu y yo seremos los directores de nuestras vidas. Que mi mundo serás tu y tu mudo ser yo. -Será que es mucho pedir? A lo mejor esto será un sueño? Por que no me lo merezco. Te y te vivo. Me miras y me enloqueces te apoderas de mi sin darte cuenta. Será cuando tu digas. Sere paciente por que te quiero. Te haz vuelto parte de mi vida diaria, tu presencia me trae vida y esperanza a seguir a ser mejor persona pero a la vez instruirte a ser mejor hombre.
Seamos realista, eso es lo que esta en mi mente. En la mente de este este individuo no comparte los mismo pensamientos pero deseos que yo. Vivo, vivo en un mundo de fantasía donde solo comparto las esperanza con mi corazón y la soledad. Se que un día te marcharas y dejaras dentro de en mi corazón dolor y sufrimiento, – pero mientras pueda apreciare tu presencia y mi aquellas miradas cautivas que penetran mi alma. -Si, soy aquel iluso que piensa que un día serás mío, solo mío. Pero con el tiempo aprendi que soñar no cuesta nada. Aprendi a ser aquel iluso pero no pendejo.
Esta noche, disfrutare la nieve caer, pero a la ves deseare sentir el sabor de tu saliva sobre la mía. Te viviré, -por que hoy pudiera ser la única vez en la que te tengo tan cerca pero a la vez tan lejos a la ves. Desearía saciar tus labios de amor y pasión con mucha lujuria y deseo hasta que sientas que eres mío y yo tu yo por el resto de nuestras existencias. -Se que mi deseo y anhelo es solo un mas de mis caprichos pero por el momento seguir siendo que iluso enamorado anónimamente con miedo de perderte.
Hoy me haz dado unas razón mas para vivir pero seguir expresando mis emociones de una forma agradable e indescribible haciéndote parte de lo que pronto será el pasado.
January 23, 2016, Forest Hills NY,11375.
I wonder, How do we know when we are taking the right decision?
I hope that those decisions don’t affect those who loves us.
I don’t want to cause any pain to nobody.
I want to follow my desire.
I want to go away with you.
I want to be free and rejoice my soul in your majestic.
I wonder, I wonder when that would happen?
Why I can’t get any closer?
Let me tell you… Ill share this with you, but at the same time control your judgemental mind. -I hope you get to understand how I feel.
Its amazing when people get to enjoy the music until a point that you loose your mind but at the moment Elevate your soul. Sometimes, I notice that people refuse on letting the music go throughout their vain while on it. I notice, how most all the people around me let the music change their self expressions, -including myself. I wonder, why I feel more attractive and secure of myself with the beat of the DRUMS. – The beat that goes all around my body by causing my soul shine with every move I make but feeling myself way too sexier.- its something unreal another #Dimension. The vocals make me perceive the reality I should be facing. I would never knew how I choose to lisent to Deep and Soul House. AMAZING!!!
This beat makes me go out of control deep inside me. I get to feel all the energy inside my body looking for a away out. The feeling its beautiful. Now, I have the power to control everything that would come to my mind that would lead me to be horny. Horny!! Omg. Well yes… You will get to that point when you will wish to have your best sexual life experience.-since we are living the moment. Theres an amazing feeling when you manage such invasion. The RYTHM gets deep inside your mind that will make you realize that things need to get done them Pow!
The beat will make you want more, do more, fit in a high society. You need to feel this, be able to control it, mind not be so simple. We could get so deep and comfortable inside our soul. The POW! (Beat) will wake you up and start moving forward. This morning I decide, that I will moving into the RYTHM. I will chance it, I will look for something different. I am capable to start something new. DJ Oscar G – OSCAR G live @ SPACE NYC 2015 (Raw & Uninterrupted)
A Great Motivation With Out Numbers
In life, we have to go through many experiences, but the goal is to learn from them and overcome difficult moments. Most of the time, we tell ourselves that in order to become better people we have to take a moment to listen to those we love. I have to agree with that belief. In order for people to understand what this common phrase means, they have to live it, or else they are never going to understand what I am talking about. I would say my mother is a great example. My mother has always been the greatest motivation I have ever had in my life. I am very thankful to have an amazing mother. There are things I do not understand in life, but she is able to give me interpretations, and motivation, in order to keep going.
Today, I am walking to get a grade from my math class. I am not going to say that I hate math, since “hate” is a very strong word, It’s one that can be tossed around pretty heavily without much regard for what it means or how it can strike certain people, but I am not the best when it comes to numbers. My mother knows that, as well. While I am walking, I enjoy the air that is kissing my skin. My heart is beating very quickly. I notice that I am sweating, because I am scared to fail math. I know I did my best in order to pass, but the negativity in my mind is always there. I am finally here, waiting for my professor to call my name so I can hear my grade. Now is when I start to sweat quickly. When I finally hear my name, I start shaking. I tell myself to control my feelings; everything will be fine, and I should stay positive. My professor tells me that I failed. In this moment, I want to start running in the hallways. I want to cry in front of my professor. However, if I do not control myself, I will look like a crazy person who does not know how to behave. I listen to what my professor has to tell me. While I am walking out, I decide that I do not want to come back to school. I am very disappointed. I can not believe I am losing a whole semester because I did not pass, but, like I said before, everything happens for a reason.
I go to my house, because I am sad. My mother tells me it is time for dinner. While we are having dinner, my mother notices that I look very quiet and disappointed. I was not planning to tell her what was going on, since I did not want to upset her, and she might think I was not going to school to study. At the end of dinner, I decide to tell her what happened. My mother tells me, “In life, people make mistakes and people fail, but that does not mean that you give up. In order to succeed, you will face a lot of things that you will not be able to understand yet. You just failed a class; that is not a reason to give up so easily. Register for the next math class, and ask for tutoring. Now is when you have to do things differently. Change seats, change your environment, and try new study techniques. That will help.” I listened to what my mother tells me, and I have no words to tell her how impressed I am by what she is telling me. Now, I understand things better. If people do not share their conflicts and worries with the loved ones when thing are happening, they would not be able to over come and learn so quickly.
Time goes by so quickly. I am walking again to get my grades. This time, the sun is kissing my face. I am not sweating like the first time I did this. Now, the professor is telling me I passed the class with good grades. I must say, listening to my mother always leads me to a great path. Her motivation was so unique and powerful, that I was able to stay focused and understand things better. She told me, “Change your environment.” Now, if something bad happens I will be able to over come that situation by keeping in mind what my mother taught me. I realize that no matter what happens in life, we always have to stay positive. If I did not pass my first math class I would not be able to understand why I must keep going even if I failed at a task. I learned that sharing things with my family, I am able to find support and resolution. Furthermore, humans tend to think that problems do not have resolutions in life. On the other hand, that is why it is convenient to be able to count with a family member, since they can have that mysterious answer or support that we might be looking for. Now, I can relate to what people mean when they that everything happen for a reason.
Juan Armando Ramos
“I was in the winter of my life, and the men I met along the road were my only summer.
At night I fell asleep with visions of myself, dancing and laughing and crying with them.
Three years down the line of being on an endless world tour, and my memories of them were the only things that sustained me, and my only real happy times.
I was a writer – not a very popular one,
I once had dreams of becoming a beautiful writer, but upon an unfortunate series of events saw those dreams dashed and divided like a million stars in the night sky that I wished on over and over again, sparkling and broken.
But I didn’t really mind because I knew that it takes getting everything you ever wanted, and then losing it to know what true freedom is.
When the people I used to know found out what I had been doing, how I’d been living, they asked me why – but there’s no use in talking to people who have home.
They have no idea what it’s like to seek safety in other people – for home to be wherever you lay your head.
I was always an unusual boy.
My mother told me I had a chameleon soul, no moral compass pointing due north, no fixed personality; just an inner indecisiveness that was as wide and as wavering as the ocean…
And if I said I didn’t plan for it to turn out this way I’d be lying…
Because I was born to be the other men.
Who belonged to no one, who belonged to everyone.
Who had nothing, who wanted everything, with a fire for every experience and an obsession for freedom that terrified me to the point that I couldn’t even talk about it, and pushed me to a nomadic point of madness that both dazzled and dizzied me.”